So in the last post the whole Knowles family ( except Matthew) went on a vacation to get away from all the mess with Matthew and from the media ..They had an amazing day at the beach and everything was fine until Usher’s dumbass decided to push it and kiss Bey … little did they know that Jay saw everything so here it goes J
Person: *knocks again*
Bey: Ok come in
Usher: *opens door* Hey Bey can I talk to you?!
Bey: Uh what are you doing here?! I don’t have nothing to talk about with you
Usher: Please Bey just 5min
Bey: *sighs* Usher you know if Jay sees you here he will freak out
Usher: *comes in* Please Beyoncé
Bey: *stands up* Please leave usher *pushes him towards the door*
Usher: *grabs her face and kisses her*
Little did they know that Jay saw them kissing.. He decided to go back downstairs and wait for Bey to tell him what’s going on, he wants to see if she’s honest with him about this situation.. He’s so mad that he decided to go for a walk just to clear his head
Solo: Jay where are you going?! What happened?!
Jay: Nothing I’m just gonna go for a walk on the beach .. I need some fresh air
Kelly: mmmm ok do you know where Bey is?!
Jay: I have no idea *leaves*
Upstairs
Bey: *pushes Usher away and slaps him* what are you doing?! O.o Usher I have a boyfriend and I love Jay so why would you do that?! And you are with Solo *shakes her head*
Usher: Bey I always had a crush on you and I know you have feelings for me too just admit it..i know you don’t love that big ass lips nigga
Bey: You are out of your mind right now… I’m gonna let this pass because I don’t want more drama and we are here to chill and not do deal with bullshit like this … You are lucky that Jay didn’t see anything he would have beaten the shit out of you .. and YES I LOVE JAY so get over it …You are lucky that I won’t tell anybody about this *leaves the room*
Bey *thinks* WTF is wrong with him?! This is crazy.. like damn can I get a break?! I had such an amazing day and now this -____- Jay will freak out if he finds out and it will just bring more drama into our lives …
Downstairs
Bey: Jay?! JAYYY?! Jay baby where are you?!
Kelly: Ugh Bey do you have to yell like that?! Shut up haha
Bey: Bitch this is MY vacation so I do whatever I want and you will deal!!!
Solo: Damn what happened?! Why are you mad like that?!
Bey: Oh you too?! Nothing happened where is Jay?!
Ty: well he left for a walk on the beach, he looked pressed tho
Bey: mmm ok I’m gonna go look for him
Solo: Oh Bey do you know where Usher is?! I haven’t seen him for a while
Bey: I have no idea *opens door*
MsTina: Beyoncé don’t take too long dinner is ready
Bey: Ok mom I will be right back
Angie: Yeah right watch them get freaky on the beach
Ty: Phahah yessss I bet she’s gonna get dicked down
Solo: FREAKS
Bey: *roles eyes* shut up lol you guys are just pressed because you are getting non
Bey walks along the beach, she’s looking for Jay but he is nowhere to be found
Bey: Jayyyyy?! JAYYYYYYYYY ugh where are you
Jay heard Bey calling him but ignored her and kept walking along the beach …He wasn’t ready to talk to her just yet after everything he saw, he was still hurt and he needed time to think about their relationship and how sick and tired he was of all the drama that involved the two of them …As he kept walking and thinking tears started to fall down his cheeks because he wasn’t sure if this was what he wanted…of course he loved Beyoncé more than anything but was fighting for their relationship worth it at the end?! Was the relationship healthy for him and her?! It wasn’t like they were getting physical against one another but all the drama was getting to him emotionally and surely to Bey too, she always tried to be strong but was she really as strong as she seemed?! And seeing her kissing Usher after everything they have been through made him rethink their relationship even more. Maybe everyone was right and they weren’t made for each other, that she was too young for him and wasn’t ready for a serious relationship like that…
Jay decided to go back to the house and pack his stuff. He wanted to clear his mind and he figured out that being on this vacation with everyone would make things worse. The fact that Usher was in the same house as him and Bey didn’t help at all. On his way back he ran into Bey who was still looking for him
Bey: *sees Jay* OMG babe I was looking for you.. where have you been?! And why did you leave the house?!
Jay: *attitude* Chill Bey it isn’t that serious
Bey: Oh ok. Did I do something ?! why are you acting like that?!
Jay: *attitude* Acting like what?!
Bey: You know what…. never mind
They head back to the house in silence. Jay didn’t have courage to tell Bey that he was leaving , he actually was trying to escape a fight because he knew Bey would freak out about the fact that he wanted to go back to New York. But he knew that he would have to tell her sooner or later. Bey on the other side was confused on why Jay was acting like that towards her, especially after the great sex they had like 2 hours ago
As they arrived at home Jay headed to their room what left Bey even more confused than she already was.
Bey *thinks* What tf is wrong with him?! He’s acting strange all of the sudden
Her thoughts got interrupted by MsTina who was calling everyone to come to the dinner table
MsTina: BB where is Jay?!
Bey: Upstairs mama I’m sure he will come downstairs soon
While they were talking downstairs Jay was in their room packing all his stuff and getting ready to leave. He called his private jet and decided to call TyTy because he needed someone to talk to
TyTy: Yo man how is the vacation going?!
Jay: I’m leaving today
TyTy: What nigga?! Why?!
Jay: Something happened that made me think about Bey and my relationship and I guess some time apart from her will help me clear my mind
TyTy: Damn really?! What happened?!
Jay: *sighs* I saw her kissing Usher man. I’m sick and tired of everything right now I just need to leave. Can I come to your place?!
TyTy: Sure but why?! You have your own apartment
Jay: *sad* Yeah I know but I’m sure Bey will go look for me there so I need to stay at your place for a while is that ok?!
TyTy: Aright. I hope you are doing the right thing
Jay: Me too. Thanks and see you later
TyTy: ok man give me a call when you arrived at the airport ok?!
Jay: Sure Bye
Jay grabs his packed begs and heads downstairs. Everyone else was at the table , Bey was with her back turned to the hallway so she didn’t see Jay coming with his begs.
Kelly: Bey turn around
Bey: mmmm why?! *turns around and sees Jay with his begs*
A weird feeling overcame her immediately she knew something was very wrong but she couldn’t figure out what. She stood up and walked towards Jay who put the begs down next to the door. She didn’t know what was going on but her eyes already started to get filled with tears, she tried to fight it but she couldn’t help but to cry
Bey: Jay what is going on?! *points at the begs* and these are for what?! Are you leaving?! *wipes her tears away*
Jay *feeling bad* Bey I’m leaving
Bey: *sniff* But why?! What did I do?! What happened?!
Jay: Bey I can’t *opens the door*
Bey: *grabs his arm* NOOOOO!!! please don’t leave or at least tell me why you’re leaving like this *tears were streaming down her cheeks by now*
The others noticed that something was wrong but decided to stay at the dinner table. They figured out that Bey and Jay needed some time to talk although they all were dying to know what was going on. They only heard Bey crying and it seemed like she was begging but they didn’t know why
Seeing Beyoncé react like that made Jay feel horrible. He didn’t even have courage to look her in the eyes, seeing her like that was heartbreaking and was really affecting him. Bey still had her arm on Jay’s trying to stop him but he managed to get away and leave out the door. Bey was standing at the door in disbelieve about what just had happened. Jay left without telling her why and without warning her of his intention. As Jay got into the car to make his was to his private jet the tears started falling down, he was fighting them in front of Bey but now that he was alone he couldn’t help it anymore, his emotions took over him and doubt was starting to emerge as he thought about what just happened. Was it really the right decision?! Was it right to leave Beyoncé standing there without even explaining why he was leaving?! Did this mean the end of their relationship?! Jay debated if he should or should not just go back to the woman he loved. But then was it better going back to the old problems or to have some time apart and maybe make things better?!His heart was telling him to go back but his head was saying the opposite. He took all the strength he had and left and on his way back to New York there was only 1 thing on his mind : BEYONCÉ
Beyoncé was still standing on the door in disbelieve about what just happened, she was still crying her eyes out trying to figure out what went wrong but she couldn’t think of anything in particular and that was the thing that was driving her crazy. She decided to keep standing there maybe Jay would come to sense and come back to her. After 30 minutes the other started to worry about Jay and Bey because they hadn’t come back to the table and they didn’t hear them anymore.
Solo: I’m gonna go look after them
Kelly: NO what if they are still talking and don’t want to get interrupted
Solo: But I can’t hear anything, besides I heard them arguing and I heard Bey crying too so I’m worried about her
Usher was at the table too with a dumb ass smile on his face. He was almost sure that they got into a big fight
Solo: Why are you smiling babe?!
Usher: Oh nothing, I was thinking about something
Solo: *looks at Tina* Mom I want to go see what’s going on
MsTina: I don’t know Solange maybe Kelly is right and we should give them some time
Solo: But if something is wrong?!
MsTina: Ok go to the door if they are still talking come back and let them talk ok?!
Solo: Ok *leaves the table*
Solo walk towards the door and sees Bey standing there crying
Solo: OMG Bey what happened?! Where is Jay?!
Bey: *sniff* He left
Solo: What do you mean he left?!
Bey: He is on his way to New York I think. HE LEFT
Solo: *hugs her* It’s gonna be ok. But why tho?!
Bey: I don’t know *cries harder*
Solo: Bey calm down, c’mon lets go upstairs you need to rest and tomorrow we will do something
Bey: NO I’m gonna stay here!! Maybe he’ll come back
Solo: Bey I don’t think he’ll come back, let’s go upstairs and you can call him then *grabs her hand*
They both go upstairs and Bey tried to call Jay over 20 times but he didn’t pick up. After trying over and over again Bey fell asleep
MsTina goes to check on them and when she enters the room she sees the two girls sleeping and Jay is nowhere to be found. She figured out that something was wrong between him and Bey but she didn’t want to wake them up because they were sleeping so peacefully and it was non of her business.
After a couple of hours Jay finally arrives in New York, he sees TyTy waiting for him and they go to TyTy’s apartment. Jay looks at his phone and sees that he has like 20 missed calls from Bey. It was already so late so he didn’t call or text her back.
Bey woke up at 6am the next morning. She was hoping that everything that happened the night before was just a dream but when she saw Solange lying next to her, she had the confirmation that it was real. She looked at her phone with the hope that Jay had called or at least texted her but that wasn’t the case. Her eyes started to get filled with tears again and she decided to text him maybe he would answer this time
(Bey’s text to Jay) Jay honestly I don’t know why you left like that yesterday. I can’t think of anything that went wrong so please explain it to me, I’m going crazy over her. I tried to call you like 20times but you didn’t pick up so please call me. I Love You
She tried to get back to sleep because it was really early but it was impossible with everything on her mind. Meanwhile in New York Jay heard his cellphone vibrate and decided to see who it was. He saw the text message from Bey as he read it, it made him feel worse but going back wasn’t an option and he didn’t know if he was ready to call her yet so he texted her back.
(Jay’s text to Bey) Beyoncé just let us leave it like that. I know I probably sound like an ass right now but I don’t feel like talking to you right now
Bey immediately grabbed her phone as she saw it vibrate. She was sure it was Jay and as she read the message she felt a weird feeling in her stomach. Although Jay texted saying he wasn’t ready to talk she called him anyway with the hope he would pick up. Jay saw that Bey was calling him and his heart started to beat faster.
Jay: *thinks* Shit she’s calling should I pick up or not?! Well but I’ll have to talk to her sooner or later and I can’t keep running away lets end it right now
Jay: * Picks up* Hello
Bey: Jay?!
Jay: Yes?!
Bey: Where are you and why did you leave me like that?! *starts crying*
Jay: Bey stop crying you know that I hate that
Bey: Sorry but I can’t help it now answer my question
Jay: Bey I think we should be apart for some time.
Bey: Are you breaking up with me?! *cries*
Jay: *silence*
Bey: JAY TALK TO ME!!! Are you leaving me for good?! *sniff* Why?! What did I do?!
Jay: Bey it’s not your fault it’s me. I think I’m not ready for a serious relationship neither are you
Bey: What the hell?! Why are you saying this now?! What happened we had such a good time at the beach and the sex was great too so what went wrong?!
Jay: Bey just stop ok?! I just think that maybe you are not the right one for me
Jay’s heart dropped when he told her this, it just sort of came out. That maybe if he acted like that it would be easier for her to get over it. He heard nothing from the other end. Beyoncé was broken hearted and Jay knew that so after the silence Bey finally said something
Bey: So you fucked me and now you are leaving?! So you really ‘’ thug em, fuck em, love em, leave em, Cause you don't fuckin need em’’ huh?!
Jay: Maybe I really am what everyone thinks
Bey: So everything we have been through doesn’t mean anything to you anymore?!So all the fucking times I cried on your shoulder and you encouraged me?! All the talks we had?! All the secrets we shared?! That doesn’t mean anything Shawn?!!!
Jay: Apparently not all the secrets were shared and it lacked on honesty
Bey: What are you talking about?!
Jay: It doesn’t matter anymore Beyoncé. You are so young and you still have so much life to live. We have different point of views
Bey: Are you fuckin someone else Shawn?!
Jay: Beyoncé like I said it doesn’t matter
Bey: Oh so you came to this conclusion after we spent the whole day at the beach and after the sex afterwards?! Tell me Shawn what did I do wrong so that I can make it better the next time. What did I do wrong?! What?! I didn’t suck dick good enough?! Didn’t ride nice dick like you like it?! Huh Big Pimping?! Did my pussy stank?!What?! What did I do?! You got bored fucking me?!
Bey’s words really got to Jay he was in tears by now. The things she listed weren’t near the problem at all. Jay whipped his tears away because he wanted to seem strong and get over with this conversation asap.
Jay: Just drop it Bey. You have a nice body you are beautiful and I had fun
Bey: FUCK YOU *she screamed before hanging up the phone*
This phone conversation left both broken hearted. Jay was battling with if he did the right thing or not, was it really the end of everything?!Jay continued to think of everything meanwhile Bey was still in shock about everything Jay said to her. She was determined to go back home but the others convinced her to stay the rest of the time they had left. They tried to cheer her up as good as they could but it didn’t help at all Bey was an emotional wreck and everybody saw that. Usher’s attempts to get closer to her failed. She blocked everything and everyone. Jay’s words were burned in her head and no one could erase them. While the others enjoyed the rest of the vacation Bey just stayed in her room feeling sorry for herself.
After the week was over they headed back to Houston where Bey decided to speak her mind to Jay for the last time but this time not with a call but by text message.
Bey’s text messages to Jay:
(text) Hello Shawn it’s me. I thought a lot about what I wanted to say to you and seriously I don’t know what went wrong. You broke my heart into pieces with everything you said to me in our last conversation
(text) I don’t know if I should be mad at myself for falling in love with you and get so attached or if I should be mad at you for taking my soul and breaking me into pieces
(Text) what we had was so beautiful, you meant the world to me. I have never felt like this before , your love turned me into a woman. Although I had been in a relationship with Lyndell before it was completely different from what we had. You made me believe in myself and believe that I could conquer the world if I just believed in it.
(text) You were my rock, my partner my everything and that’s what made me love you even more. And now after what happened I don’t know if you feel the same, I feel embarrassed and stupid because you played me like that and I didn’t even notice
(Text) I don’t even know if the things you said to me all this time were honest or just a lie. But it’s partially my fault for letting you take control of me like that. I hate feeling like a broken person like I’m feeling right now. Maybe I’m really not good enough for you. I’m surrounded by people but I feel so lonely. You were the light in my darkness but now I feel empty and in the dark.
(Text) I love you more than anything but I learned that I have to start putting me first and love me first. I’m giving you one last chance to work things out and if you decide to end our story for good I’ll have to accept it. So If you still want to be with me you can call/text or whatever you want to do to get in touch again. You’ll have until tomorrow night. I know that maybe you are busy but if I’m important enough you’ll make time for me.
(Text)If this isn’t the case I’ll change my number and you will never have to talk to me again. Love Beyoncé
Jay sees the text messages and decides to…..
TBC…..
